Also to add. If you can't work out the answer to that question then don't feel pressured into trying to force it.

It's ok not be able to answer the question. Life is a search for meaning. Sometimes it comes, sometimes it doesn't. The money in and of itself isn't going to answer the question. And in fact, freedom from the 'toil' required to make ends meet might remove some of the purpose that OP previously felt. But I think when faced with change and upheaval that removes the certainties of life (in this case 'work, eat sleep, repeat') you owe it to yourself to see if you can work out the answer.